I just dont FIT IN

Im realizing more and more how much I just dont fit in. Initially it makes me a little sad because I love people and I love getting to know them [and if I can make them laugh... Im even more estatic!]. Sometimes people are just a little apprehensive opening up to me or sharing things with me because Im a "pastors wife." [I hate titles!] Even if they dont realize thats what is happening. [Or maybe its just me and Im terrible at meeting people. lol] It has taken me a little longer to really get to know people I am around on a daily basis. So I was pondering this the other night and then I realized that Im not going to fit in. Nor should I want to fit in. I am different. And thats why I am so THANKFUL for my Christian friends and Church family. I am realizing how IMPORTANT a church community is. I would be so sad if I was the only Christian around, trying to share Christ with others, and not being able to truly have a connection or conversation on 'My level' of thinking ever! That would be terrible! Im thankful God has shown me how much I dont fit in.... even though it makes me feel like a loser at times. Its a blessing having those people in my life that do understand me and have an understanding of what is going on in my life.
The bible is clear in stating that I wont fit in... so Im thankful that I feel this way because Christ promised me it would be this way.

Romans 12:2

"Don't copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God's will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect."

John 15:18-27

 “If the world hates you, remember that it hated me first. The world would love you as one of its own if you belonged to it, but you are no longer part of the world. I chose you to come out of the world, so it hates you. Do you remember what I told you? ‘A slave is not greater than the master.’ Since they persecuted me, naturally they will persecute you. And if they had listened to me, they would listen to you. They will do all this to you because of me, for they have rejected the one who sent me. They would not be guilty if I had not come and spoken to them. But now they have no excuse for their sin. Anyone who hates me also hates my Father. If I hadn’t done such miraculous signs among them that no one else could do, they would not be guilty. But as it is, they have seen everything I did, yet they still hate me and my Father. This fulfills what is written in their Scriptures: ‘They hated me without cause.’

“But I will send you the Advocate—the Spirit of truth. He will come to you from the Father and will testify all about me. And you must also testify about me because you have been with me from the beginning of my ministry."

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Decisions Descisions

What is more important?

OPTION # 1:

A hair Cut (in which I would say is EXTREMELY needed) These split ends are horrible and Im thinking about bangs... maybe? But Not Big BANGS like miss Kardashian here.

I think I want something more subtle like miss Cucksey from HGTV.

OPTION #2:

Buy a camera lense and camera strap. (which is also VERY important for the safety of my camera)

OPTION # 3:

Buy lots of craft stuff that Ive been looking at on blogs.

chalk board props

and pretty flowers!

So many decisions to make! Im such a girl! Cant make up my mind! :)

Leviticus

So, Im working on reading the bible through chronologically (I like stories that go in order :). So far it hasn't been too bad. With saying that I've also not gotten very far yet. :) Im getting there... slowly. Something that has really helped me is having an outline. I went to www.biblestudytools.com and it has been a HUGE help with keeping me on track. I just made it through BORING Leviticus. I probably shouldn't say that... but I was EXTREMELY bored while reading it. I think its because I am not a detail oriented person AT ALL! And this whole book is God telling Moses what to tell the people. He told them exact proportions for building, what kind of animal is good for offerings, He even went as far as explaining how to cleanse one self from infectious skin diseases! ew! It really was a struggle to stay focused.
One question I found myself asking, and Im not even sure if it matters, but I caught on to it. What is the difference between offering a Sheep and Goats, herd and flocks, and male and female offerings? I realized it mentions both but I didnt catch on to the difference between the two (besides the obvious oppositions).

I read the last two chapters tonight and honestly I TRULY enjoyed ch. 26. God is so evident and "real" in this chapter. He tells how He will be with the people and bless them if they continue to honor and worship Him.

Lev. 26:9-13"I will look on you with favor and make you fruitful and increase your numbers, and I will keep my covenant with you, You will still be eating last year's harvest when you will have to move it out to make room for the new. I will put my dwelling place among you, and I will not abhor you, I will walk among you and be your God, and you will be my people. I am the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt so that you would no longer be slaves to the Egyptians; I broke the bars of your yoke and enabled you to walk with heads held high."

And then..... He gives the other option... dun ...dun....dun...! If you don't follow me life will royally suck for you!

Lev. 26:14-17 "But if you will not listen to me and carry out all these commands, and if you reject my decrees and abhor my laws and fail to carry out all my commands and so violate my covenant, then I will do this to you: I will bring upon  you sudden terror, wasting diseases and fever that will destroy your sight and drain away your life. You will plant seed in vain, because your enemies will eat it. I will set my face against you so that you will be defeated by your enemies; those who hate you will rule over you, and you will flee even when no one is pursuing you."

Well if that isnt Honest I dont know what is! As I read this I was in awe! In awe of who God is and what He promised He would do. What a great parent He is to us. A father who sticks His grounds and follows through with discipline. But this isnt all... He continues!

Lev. 26:40-45 "Buy if they will confess their sins and the sins of their fathers- their treachery against me and their hostility toward me, which made me hostile toward them so that I sent them into the land of their enemies- then when their uncircumcised hearts are humbled and they pay for their sin, I will remember my covenant with Jacob and my covenant with Isaac and my covenant with Abraham, and I will remember the land. For the land will be deserted by them and will enjoy its Sabbaths while it lies desolate without them. They will pay for their sins because they rejected my laws and abhorred my decrees. Yet in spite of this, when they are in the land of their enemies, I will not reject them or abhor them so as to destroy them completely, breaking my covenant with them. I am the LORD their God. But for their sake I will remember the covenant with their ancestors whom I brought out of Egypt in the sight of the nations to be their God. I am the LORD."

And this is where we stand in awe, humbled by Gods GREATNESS! And say with all that we are, "Thank you!"